This is our God and His purpose in my Life!

I am so grateful for what's happening in my life right now. I am so blessed and overwhelmed because of what God has done in my life. God has open the flood gate of heaven for me...as what He has promised for all of us. I never ask for more than what I need but my God, our Father in Heaven pour the blessings on me. More than the money and material things He gave me Love, Peace and Joy in my heart.

When I almost give up...struggling life for nothing...I am so tired running my whole life against life, when I lost direction, when I was alone and no one is around, when I cry out but no one hears me, when I need help but no one extend hands for me, when I need someone to cry on but no shoulder to lean on...I was alone in the middle of nowhere...I'm so helpless. Giving up is my last remedy but because I am a believer of luck so it happen to me. I thought I restore all the things that I have lost, I regain a strength, draw it from family, from friends and I am just thinking that I can do it for myself but I used to fail at the end. Why I fail? Because I never submitted myself to God. I thought life will run smoothly, I think it runs smoothly but the emptiness deep inside of me everytime I get in my room and made me realized that I am still alone and no one is around, the holes in my life that keep on haunting me, I never become a whole until such I knew Jesus in my life.

I have to admit, I never knew Him, I maybe knew Him but I don't have a relationship with Him before the way I have now. The time I knew Him, He crashed my life, He destroyed me, Jesus came into my life and destroy me, He ruined my life, I even don't know myself anymore but He created a new me, He creates a new masterpiece in me. I can't trace myself anymore, I am gone, I died also in the cross with Jesus and raise again into life that's why I can't recognize myself anymore.

Jesus came into my life to save me not to condemn. He came to give me Freedom not to prison me, He gave me Love and not to punish me for what I have done in the past. Now...my heart is filled with joy for I have live my life according to His purpose and not mine.

Last Day of my life…as me!

I am someone who is strong, who never accept defeats, someone who don’t know how to cry. I live my life to the fullest; I enjoyed life but didn’t realize what it really meant for me. There are so many things that happen in my life. There are lots of ups and down, lot of tears but there’s a lot of laughter. Life is so easy for me. I been into vices, I even allow to be manipulated by other people. I believed that was the most beautiful life I ever had. When I got my work here in Manila, life seems to be nothing but enjoyment, nothing but fun, nothing but addiction, nothing but competing others but every time I got home, I feel that something is missing in my life.

Life must go on as they say but every time I open my room when coming home, all alone, I am not aware that tears are coming in my eyes. I don’t know if I am just missing my family or is it because I am just alone. Things get worse and worse, there’s emptiness in me but I can’t figure out what is that emptiness and how I can resist it.

One time a friend invited me to visit somewhere else one Tuesday night of August. From there, I met Him again. I knew Him before but I really don’t have a relationship with Him. That was the day that I told myself to love Him again, to allow Him to stay in my life. I don’t know but every time I come home there’s a smile in my face and slowly the emptiness in me is filled with so much joy and love.

These coming days in my life is very significant to me coz He’ll be taking my life from me. I’ll be submitting myself to Him, totally submitting my whole life and this life is not mine anymore, He will owned my life. He will wash my life and take all those bad memories, He will take all the pain in my heart and He will fill it with so much love and I’ll never be the same again.

I might be leaving my family, my friends and the people that surrounds me because of this journey I have with Him, I know I will be happy with Him and I will share the love that I never felt before. I’m ready to take the cross with Him.